Finally Clear everything off the wind yesterday night. Is so much better now. Perhaps i really think too much, nevertheless i finally said it out after so long. Would be better if i learn to be daring and brave through it. For my character it's partially impossible! Because of this character, my mind is never at rest!

I regrets for can't making up my mind. Ahh. I am like wasting time for the past 4 years. If I brave through it, by now i had already graduated. WTF! Now I had to be extremly hardworking for the next 3 years. By the time if i can gradute i am already 24 years old. Think back the past 4 years, the money that i spent is like all went down the drain. And i only realized it now, spending 4 years on doing nails with that little paid thinking that i can do nails for the rest of my life. "What a Naive thinking". Is never too late to be back to school, but to me it's still a little too late. As i can see what the future going to be like; if i still continue to day dream and naive thinking, my future will be runied by myself.

True enough what the old always told us. " Without money life will be very miserable."

Mummy always told me you think we are staying in kampong now? What is going to be like in 10 years down the road? If you are not going to work hard now, Nobody is going to help you next time. Whereas come to money issue, Everyone is kinda sensitive to it. You are already grown up, i can't be like helding your hand like when you are young telling you to do this do that forever and you've seen so many example throughout these years.

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